its been ages since ive posted. its feels like ages since i have written also. sickness hit us hard and we're still breaking free. issues that were buried have since come to light again. i always think i am so good at locking things up in tiny boxes and not dealing with them but the truth is, thats all i do. i put them away and dont think about it. it helps for the moment, but doesnt change the truth. i was reminded yesterday how good i can be at becoming completely numb, like nothing can touch me. its all bullshit, really- the question is actually how long can i prolong the inevitable, because i have known nothing else for the last 8 years. somethings gotta give, and things need to be said, but there are some words that i will never let come from my mouth, because once they are out, everything changes. there will be no going back. i am not ready for that right now.
i realize that is extremely vague, but i dont feel like directly putting my personal life into this blog right now, at least not in details.
i watched "The Wackness" lOOOOOOOooOOOoooOOOooOOoved it.
in other news, i have not been listening to much music, so thats contributing to my dismal mood.
About Me
- Sarah
- I'm 29, a mom, a nurse, and am always stretched between what i do, and what i love to do, which are at opposite sides of the spectrum (clinical vs. creative). i'm a closeted writer. i can't NOT create, that's something I've realized about myself. i start various side projects and try to see them through as a way to distract myself from the mundane crap that sometimes fills my days.
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