dm new album...wtf?

so my husband was on itunes last night and was like, hey they have this depeche mode thing on here. and i was like "yeah, i probably have all those songs, though." so this am i jumped on the tunes to look for something else (tenek's album) and i see this ad for a new dm album?? WTF? Its called Songs of the Universe and its being released on 4-21-09.

I think this is going to be the best year for music! YAY!
(ex:)
the new Morrissey album is out

DM in april

AFI coming soon i hope. i am hoping for a summer tour. that'd be awesome.

anyway. off to the grocery. should be all around fun times, espcially when i get to take a 2.5 yr old along. you should try it. by the end, i feel like having a tantrum too.

yeah, and by the way, LOST sucked last night! :(

l word

are we seeing a pattern emerging here?

(see below)

strangelove

listening to strangelove by dm. i love this song. anyway.

my 7 yr old told me he felt dead inside the other day. it was in reference to not being able to find one of his video games. it startled me since, where the hell could he have heard that? it occured to me that he truely could have felt that way and was just articulate enough to express it. that is sort of scary for me, since i have had many times in my life when i've felt just that- dead inside.

i watched a movie called "No Night is Too Long". I dvd'r'd it and i missed the end..........ugh. it stopped taping like 30 min before the ending. the character Tim (Lee Williams- see left) stuck with me for somereason, i'm sure you'll see why. he reminds me of someone, although i dont know if it is someone actually know/knew or its another actor. anyway. heres a perfect example of the androgyny i enjoy.

OooOOOoooOOooOOooOo

1. camille rose garcia. you should check her art out. its pretty cool, i ordered a book from amazon.com so i am eagerly awaiting the mail.

2. i found a book called "11,200 things to be miserable about". its halarious. here are a few examples. "visible panty lines, hair on the soap, fires preceded by the word great, jeans in august, verbal lashings, jackrabbit sex, and realizing you dont like any of your friends". the book is literally a list of items. it gave me a much needed laugh.

3. went flower girl dress shopping for my brothers wedding. its so nice that i had little to no decisions to make about my own wedding 7 years ago. no really. so much drama for one single day that you will be paying the bills on for the next 10 years. for what?

anyway, so much more to write, but must get in the shower.

updates and whatnot.

1. got in touch with an old friend. well, not old, but someone i havent talked to in a year or so. we went to highschool together, and generally waxed poetic about life, time and space. so anyway, i feel like she is one of the only people who might understand how i feel sometimes. i know she feels it too. i plan on writing her some snail mail when my thoughts are better organized. i made her a mix of songs from back then, a very random gathering of songs...but she will remember and appreciate them i am sure. for example,
Cornflake girl by Tori Amos
Root Down by Beastie Boys
My Sharona by The Knack
Add it Up by Violent Femmes
Maryjane by Rick James
Imagine by John Lennon
The Drugs Dont Work by The Verve

2. this week has been consumed by sickness and gloom. some of it my own doing, some not.

3.I watched American Teen. I havent had enough time to ponder it yet. I did like it, though.

4. Listening now: The Hungry Ghost

ghosts on the radio.

94468 is the word count now. ive written 36 pages this week. its going smoothly i suppose, yet with the addition of the new circumstance i am going to have to go back and re-edit the first 6 ch'.s. i write about this as if it will ever see the light of day, when it probably wont. but thats not the point really. i'm writing it for me, not for anyone else. its something i would want to read, there are characters i would like to know, ect. i guess if you cant find what you're looking for, you create it, right?

anyway. ghosts on the radio. one of the reviewers for the album wrote that they sounded like a mix of the cure, depeche mode and muse, and i was sold. i mean, how could that be a bad combination? turns out its not.

the album has 13 songs, and i really like 7 of them.

Halloween girl- this starts with a great guitar sound that slowly distorts over to electronic sound. actually, the beginning reminds me of a red hot chili peppers song, which is weird. later the heavy guitar riffs make me want to crank the volume.

Black- this song also starts with a very familiar sound, although i havent pinned it down yet. it makes me want to cry. the vocals remind me of Ville Vallo through the first line. the melody is suffocatingly sad. i love it.

Whore- this is one of the songs that reminds me of muse, its the voice i guess. i dont really love the lyrics, but its easy to sing to.

Standing on the Edge- first what i like about this song is the slide of guitar strings in the beginning. i love hearing that. its pretty much the song i dont hate the most if that makes sense.

Lovely- its simply that, 3:13 minutes of loveliness. it is light and alluring and the voice is clear and sweetly even.

The Moment-this conjures images of waking up with soft light filtering in through the windows. random yes, but this is such a love song.

Lovelight- this is by FAR my favorite song off the album. this also reminds me of another song, another melody, but it is lost on me now. the guitar reminds of eric clapton, especially in the end (starting at 2:31) and i dont think anyone will understand how it makes me feel. i dont even really, but it makes me feel sad and whole and golden and sort of hopeful. this is the sort of song that rips me up inside.

i am so glad no one actually reads this. i sound like such a tool. :P

anyway, today its work and the beginnings of what i think is bronchitis. oh yeah, its Valentines day too, and my mom's birthday.

this train of thought....

so i was laying on my couch today nursing a massive headache, and i thought i'd share my random train of thought with you. here goes....

my son was watching the cartoon Wow Wow Wubzy, and i thought, WOW i love this show. its so colorful and round and just...happy.

and then i thought about what other cartoons i love, and why i am so obsessed with anything colorful. i thought- hello!? rainbow brite, since i am an 80's kid.

so then i thought, yeah, remember when used to wear rainbow stuff all the time? (seriously, i had like, socks, belt, bag, arm glove things, shoelaces, i even made a pair of jeans and a pair of black pants with rainbow panels. my parents once asked me if i was gay.

which then lead me to think, did every one think i was gay? the answer doesnt bother me. just wondering.

then i thought, well i did have a girl-crush on this girl in highschool. i think only one person knows about that one. btw, she was 3 years younger than me, i never spoke one word to her.

so then i thought, do straight people have same sex crushes? not just people they think are attractive or people they wish they looked like or were like...people they actually have weird and misdirected feelings for?

see? this is proof that people find me too random. i find myself too random at times, but its better not to question, and just go with it.

suppose by secondhand serenade.

its ok that we're dying...

more anberlin and writing and questioning my intents this morning. off to work tonight. ugh. can i say that again. ugh.

the check engine light in my car was blinking today. i looked it up in the manual. it says something like "catastophic failure imminent". nice. figures that once we pay off the loan it is going to crap out.

detour

ive written like 13 or 14 pages today, and ive suddenly taken a major detour off the main trail. i'm letting myself write it though, letting the muse take me where she apparently wants to go. i guess i can scrap it later if it doesnt work out. actually, i'm much more afraid that this it THE idea for the book, and that the previous 199 pages are not going to work. most of it will, but its just weird to have this happen now. so, like i said (wrote) im going to just keep going and get it out. i just have to remind myself that all i want to do is get it finished this year, and i have 10.5 more months to do just that, or less actually, b/c when summer comes i dont get to write much. too much going on. in the winter i can sit at the computer for almost 8 hours a day inbetween pick ups and drop offs and lunch and everything else.

anyway. today its been pretty much these songs:

The Unwinding Cable Car by Anberlin
Inevitable by Anberlin
and
Why by Secondhand Serenade

gotta go!

the weekend

the weekend got off to a pretty good start. we tried to see a movie, which fell off the reel. so we took our refund and rented movies for friday night instead. we watched...my best friends girl...i fell asleep, so that tells you something about it. it was a little funny in the beginning.

saturday we were supposed to go snowboarding, but we chickened out and went snow tubing instead, which was fun, but after like 6 or 7 times down the two biggest hills and one hour later we were done. we then proceeded to run over some sort of huge metal spike/hanger thing which punctured one of our tires. we made it home though, changed and went to get something to eat before our tattoo appoinment.

my tattoo turned out great and didnt hurt at all. (the above pic is crappy, i know but it is hard to take a pic of your own arm) i was prepared for it to hurt b/c of the sensitive and thin skin of the inside of the upper arm, but it was fine. relaxing even. Ken's were alot for expensive, and apparently the tricep hurts alot (?). we watched Zack and Miri make a Porno...ken fell asleep, and i stayed awake although i was thoroughly unimpressed. (sorry) Kevin Smith's earlier films were much better (Mallrats...Clerks) either that, or i was younger and dumber.

anyway, all in all, the weekend was nice, at least not having the kids for awhile. we finished it off with Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist, which i liked. not enough to buy though.

currently listening to "Where Would You Like Them Left" Blaqk Audio. One of the first songs that grabbed me on the album...still lOvE LoVe lOvE it.

oh the excitement

my parents are taking the kids tonight and most of tomorrow. i cant remember when we last went out, it must be like going on 5 months ago now. thats pretty sad, but our lives dont really allow for frivolous (sp?) spending and we dont ask my parents to babysit very often, at least not all of them and not overnight. i have friends who 's parents take their kids like almost every weekend..i just find it kind of weird. i guess taking one is nothing compared to taking 4.

anyway.

"Push Away" ( think) by Versant...you'll have to find it on Myspace. Carrah, the vocalist is formerly of Shiny Toy Guns. I love their sound, and i dont normally gravitate towards female singers.

"This Boys in Love" by The Presets. I tried for awhile to avoid it, but now i own it.

"Epilogue" (Hardly a Day pt.1) by QED....i like this song, and one other called "Love Bites" byt them...the rest are too...i dont know.....clubby for me?

I am also listening to Assemblage 23's DEFIANCE album. I cant get enought of the music and sound. Tom Shear is a genius, and although i tend to stray from bands like VNV and Justice b/c of the bland (in my opinion) male vocals, Tom Shear is effective. I wish the lyrics were more emotional rather than politcal sometimes, like the song....Tragic Figure (LP version)...love those words.

So, anyway....tomorrow its tattoos and possible tubing and horse racing (which i was unsure of about anyway) might be cancelled. oh. well.

time stands still

words fail me at this exact moment. its not mine, although i wish it was.

from VHS or Beta's "Time Stands Still"

"i can't slow down or close my eyes

you want to know how this feels inside?

well take this blade and run it through your heart-

that's a pretty good head start"

until tomorrow