4 years ago.....my youngest son was born. he was half purple and sputtering and freaking the doctor out enough to make him ask if he was okay, while i was strapped to a table trying not ti watch the monitors.
today he is a rambuncious (sp?) little boy with enough opinions for an adult, he's got a smart mouth, a fighting spirit. he'll still kiss me every day, and he looks so much like his dad that sometimes its breathtaking. he loves cars, being in charge, and getting his way, but thats just the age. right now it is all about this battle for control, to see how far he can push me, and that too, is just the age. 4 is way worse than 3. its hard for me to imagine him the age of his older brothers, almost 9 and just as opinionated, but time seems to get away so fast that before I know it, he'll be old enough to ride his bike to school and have sleepovers. its hard not to want him to be little again, tiny and wrinkled, but at the same time, its refreshing to know that he's the last, that i never have to deal with 3am feedings or potty training or baby proofing again. anyway, thats my little rant for the day. i feel better already.
on another front, i have done nothing with the writing, though i dug out the binders and plan on reading...to get my mind back into the story.
listening to: band of horses, No ones gonna love you.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
wow.
it feels like a year. really.
the writing was going strong until early June. then the kids were done with school, and the summer made it impossible to focus on anything except escaping the heat and muting bickering children from my brain.
BUT! school is back in session, and so i am gearing up to start back at it.
so bands i focused on this summer....rage against the machine's selftitled, hadnt heard that since highschool. which makes me feel old. also smashing pumpkins' siamese dream...BT's latest, and Deadmau5.
i also learned how to quilt like a big dork. im on my third one, and have one more to go before i can make one for myself, which was the original intention. anyways. i also started watching Supernatural simply b/c there was nothing on tv. not that i watch alot of TV anyway, but when i did, i was catching up on seasons 1-5.
ttyl.
the writing was going strong until early June. then the kids were done with school, and the summer made it impossible to focus on anything except escaping the heat and muting bickering children from my brain.
BUT! school is back in session, and so i am gearing up to start back at it.
so bands i focused on this summer....rage against the machine's selftitled, hadnt heard that since highschool. which makes me feel old. also smashing pumpkins' siamese dream...BT's latest, and Deadmau5.
i also learned how to quilt like a big dork. im on my third one, and have one more to go before i can make one for myself, which was the original intention. anyways. i also started watching Supernatural simply b/c there was nothing on tv. not that i watch alot of TV anyway, but when i did, i was catching up on seasons 1-5.
ttyl.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
:::::::::::::::::year::::zero::::::::::::::::::
how i missed this one is anyones guess.
ok, so not ENTIRELY true. i probably wrote this album off as i did The Fragile.
i compelled to d/l Year Zero tonight, after a search AGAIN for PHM, which yeilds no results. anyway, zero is blowing my mind as we speak. right, so im like 3 years late, no matter. its timeless.
other news. inspired enough to write a mostly new ch 2 and 3 and still going strong.
the littlest one has a broken foot, and is sporting a green and purple striped cast. turns out he *can't* fly.
ok, so not ENTIRELY true. i probably wrote this album off as i did The Fragile.
i compelled to d/l Year Zero tonight, after a search AGAIN for PHM, which yeilds no results. anyway, zero is blowing my mind as we speak. right, so im like 3 years late, no matter. its timeless.
other news. inspired enough to write a mostly new ch 2 and 3 and still going strong.
the littlest one has a broken foot, and is sporting a green and purple striped cast. turns out he *can't* fly.
Monday, January 18, 2010
untitled
busy days.
itunes doesnt have Pretty Hate Machine, NIN. Ill have to d/l from my actual CD..if i can find it. they do have live versions of Terrible Lie and Sin though which are pretty cool, i like hearing the fans in the background.
dr. appts today. im wearing my glasses, even if i still feel traumatized. (i can SEE now, so thats a plus).
d/l Higher than the Stars, 103, and Stay Alive by The Pains of Being Pure At Heart.
I also was inspired to listen to The Cure's Disintegration Album the other day. Seriously, why do i obsess over finding new music when i have The Cure? I still have to argue that WISH is my favorite album, followed by BloodFlowers and Head on the Door,...oh yeah, and Boys Dont Cry...and WMS.
itunes doesnt have Pretty Hate Machine, NIN. Ill have to d/l from my actual CD..if i can find it. they do have live versions of Terrible Lie and Sin though which are pretty cool, i like hearing the fans in the background.
dr. appts today. im wearing my glasses, even if i still feel traumatized. (i can SEE now, so thats a plus).
d/l Higher than the Stars, 103, and Stay Alive by The Pains of Being Pure At Heart.
I also was inspired to listen to The Cure's Disintegration Album the other day. Seriously, why do i obsess over finding new music when i have The Cure? I still have to argue that WISH is my favorite album, followed by BloodFlowers and Head on the Door,...oh yeah, and Boys Dont Cry...and WMS.
Monday, January 4, 2010
snow!
snowing like crazy.
so glad winter vacation is over, its been a good 3 weeks since ive sat down to the computer to write. again, no official new years resolution, but like last year, i'm going to stick with the goal of finishing the current writing project........its hovering around 330 pages. i've started a huge revision of it, and have 1 chapter done (of 12)! yikes. the main purpose it to make it more cohesive, to fix loose ends and streamline character development in the earlier chapters. the characters are very vivid after 12+ chapters, so its easy to go back and make them more "themselves" in the early portion of the book. its slow-going, but i am optimistic that it will make the whole story better. after i finish the revisions, hopefully i will be able to finish the whole thing, and the outlines i have for the last 3 chapters. book two is floating out there somewhere, not fully realized, but more like a collection of ideas with a general direction.
a few notes about music. lady gaga...so in the media spotlight right now, i actually like the song 'speechless', and one other one, but only b/c of the electronic influences and evidence of her being a dj before a pop queen.
owl city- its a love/hate thing for me,. the first time i heard him, i almost wanted to puke. like a pixy stick....someone of it is still too "sweet" for me to swallow. i do like Hello Seattle, the remix, and of course the frequent and relentless radio-play annoys me to no end!
30stm- gotta say i do like select songs from the cd. probably the ones that got the worst reviews.
like Vox Populi, and Alibi.
The Pains of Being Pure at Heart= great smiths/morrissey-esque songs. they get flack for imitating, but i must say i enjoy their self-titled....
so...thats it, other than having palpitations that are starting to freak me out.
OH! forgot, im following the whole AFIHQ's mystery.....its so freakin intricate, im really wondering how they are ever going to tie up all the loose ends.
so glad winter vacation is over, its been a good 3 weeks since ive sat down to the computer to write. again, no official new years resolution, but like last year, i'm going to stick with the goal of finishing the current writing project........its hovering around 330 pages. i've started a huge revision of it, and have 1 chapter done (of 12)! yikes. the main purpose it to make it more cohesive, to fix loose ends and streamline character development in the earlier chapters. the characters are very vivid after 12+ chapters, so its easy to go back and make them more "themselves" in the early portion of the book. its slow-going, but i am optimistic that it will make the whole story better. after i finish the revisions, hopefully i will be able to finish the whole thing, and the outlines i have for the last 3 chapters. book two is floating out there somewhere, not fully realized, but more like a collection of ideas with a general direction.
a few notes about music. lady gaga...so in the media spotlight right now, i actually like the song 'speechless', and one other one, but only b/c of the electronic influences and evidence of her being a dj before a pop queen.
owl city- its a love/hate thing for me,. the first time i heard him, i almost wanted to puke. like a pixy stick....someone of it is still too "sweet" for me to swallow. i do like Hello Seattle, the remix, and of course the frequent and relentless radio-play annoys me to no end!
30stm- gotta say i do like select songs from the cd. probably the ones that got the worst reviews.
like Vox Populi, and Alibi.
The Pains of Being Pure at Heart= great smiths/morrissey-esque songs. they get flack for imitating, but i must say i enjoy their self-titled....
so...thats it, other than having palpitations that are starting to freak me out.
OH! forgot, im following the whole AFIHQ's mystery.....its so freakin intricate, im really wondering how they are ever going to tie up all the loose ends.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
feels like forever
so thinking of the year coming to an end, i was inspired to think about bands that i really loved this year, ones that were my creative force for so many months. the only thing is that it wont be primarily bands with albums that were released in 09, more like, a year in music for me.
1. has to be AFI. certainly my most anticipated album of the year. more like 3 years in the making. i have mixed opinions, the first ultimately being excitement to find some really honest songs on the album. it surpasses DU, falls short of STS, but that was to be expected. a high point was seeing them on tour in october, definately sung my lungs out that night. Highlights from the album are: Torch Song, Veronica Sawyer Smokes, Ok I Feel Better Now, and It was Mine. Also, the B-Sides floored me, especially Fainting Spells and Breathing Towers to Heaven. Daveys voice haunts me on that last one. moving on...
2.my most played song for this year was (shockingly) Anberlin's "Unwinding Cable Car". The soft guitars and soothing vocals were on repeat for a good portion of one of my chapters.
3.White Lies' full length "To Lose My Life", this is an album i will listen from front to back without skipping anything. the descriptive lyrics really stand out for me. this is one band that my husband also likes...thats a rarity! Saw them at Lollapalooza this year, worth the rain and people and backed up port-a-pottys.
4.Keane. All albums, but mostly Hopes and Fears. i surprised myself with this group. i didnt think i could get into them, but it seemed to help me get through some dark emotional stuff that was happening in my life earlier this year.
5. Explosions in the Sky's : The Earth Is Not a Cold Dead Place........leaves me speechless. listen to it on headphones for the full effect. Especially "Your Hand In Mine".
6.Found some bands that i love this year: IAMX, The Presets, Machines of Loving Grace (old, i know), also some electronic bands that i listen to over and over. Pendulum's 'Granite', and Goose's 'Black Gloves', Prodigy's 'Warrior Dance', Hybrid's 'I Choose Noise', were much enjoyed.
7. This was my year for THE SMITHS and MORRISSEY. How i never picked them/him up in high school i'll never know. i'm slightly more enamored with the Smith's, however, Morrissey can pack an auditorium full of beautiful people. saw him in April.
8. The Queen Killing Kings "Tidal Eyes" Album was another favorite.
9. My PUNK roots...were revived by old school albums like Rancid's, And Out Come the Wolves, MXPX's Teenage Politics, Operation Ivy's Energy (god, i love Yellin in My Ear), and The Invalids's 'Out of My Head'.
10. Albums i wasnt waiting on, but love. Mesh's A Perfect Solution (stand outs are Is it So Hard, Only Better, Who Says, The Bitter End). And Assemblage 23's Compass. (favorites are : Impermanence, How Can You Sleep, Alive, Spark, Grind, and the EP's Helicopter Girl)
Waiting on 30 sec to Mars on 12/8, I would love to see them live.
1. has to be AFI. certainly my most anticipated album of the year. more like 3 years in the making. i have mixed opinions, the first ultimately being excitement to find some really honest songs on the album. it surpasses DU, falls short of STS, but that was to be expected. a high point was seeing them on tour in october, definately sung my lungs out that night. Highlights from the album are: Torch Song, Veronica Sawyer Smokes, Ok I Feel Better Now, and It was Mine. Also, the B-Sides floored me, especially Fainting Spells and Breathing Towers to Heaven. Daveys voice haunts me on that last one. moving on...
2.my most played song for this year was (shockingly) Anberlin's "Unwinding Cable Car". The soft guitars and soothing vocals were on repeat for a good portion of one of my chapters.
3.White Lies' full length "To Lose My Life", this is an album i will listen from front to back without skipping anything. the descriptive lyrics really stand out for me. this is one band that my husband also likes...thats a rarity! Saw them at Lollapalooza this year, worth the rain and people and backed up port-a-pottys.
4.Keane. All albums, but mostly Hopes and Fears. i surprised myself with this group. i didnt think i could get into them, but it seemed to help me get through some dark emotional stuff that was happening in my life earlier this year.
5. Explosions in the Sky's : The Earth Is Not a Cold Dead Place........leaves me speechless. listen to it on headphones for the full effect. Especially "Your Hand In Mine".
6.Found some bands that i love this year: IAMX, The Presets, Machines of Loving Grace (old, i know), also some electronic bands that i listen to over and over. Pendulum's 'Granite', and Goose's 'Black Gloves', Prodigy's 'Warrior Dance', Hybrid's 'I Choose Noise', were much enjoyed.
7. This was my year for THE SMITHS and MORRISSEY. How i never picked them/him up in high school i'll never know. i'm slightly more enamored with the Smith's, however, Morrissey can pack an auditorium full of beautiful people. saw him in April.
8. The Queen Killing Kings "Tidal Eyes" Album was another favorite.
9. My PUNK roots...were revived by old school albums like Rancid's, And Out Come the Wolves, MXPX's Teenage Politics, Operation Ivy's Energy (god, i love Yellin in My Ear), and The Invalids's 'Out of My Head'.
10. Albums i wasnt waiting on, but love. Mesh's A Perfect Solution (stand outs are Is it So Hard, Only Better, Who Says, The Bitter End). And Assemblage 23's Compass. (favorites are : Impermanence, How Can You Sleep, Alive, Spark, Grind, and the EP's Helicopter Girl)
Waiting on 30 sec to Mars on 12/8, I would love to see them live.
Monday, November 2, 2009
.....
lots going on lately.
ive been enjoying Assemblage 23's newest, favorites off that are "Impermanence" "Alive" "Grind" and "The Cruelest Year". BLAQK AUDIO did a remix of "Spark", its on the EP. It look me awhile to really like it tho :(. I liked the original better.
Mesh has a new album coming out tomorrow. I d/l two songs from Dead By Sunrise. God, I love Chester's voice. So much better without the rap from Linkin Park. I found out he has 4 kids....welcome to the club, friend.
Halloween was filled with candy, an allergic reaction to the face paint, and more candy.
Ive been feverishly working on the writing, approaching 330 pages. half of me feels like it should be burned b/c it is crap, and the other, smaller percentage thinks it may the the best thing ive ever written. i passed the year mark...and i'm still going. my only goal when i started it was to stick with it to finish. its taking longer than i expected, but i have to work around work and kids and chaos to get it done.
g/g/
ive been enjoying Assemblage 23's newest, favorites off that are "Impermanence" "Alive" "Grind" and "The Cruelest Year". BLAQK AUDIO did a remix of "Spark", its on the EP. It look me awhile to really like it tho :(. I liked the original better.
Mesh has a new album coming out tomorrow. I d/l two songs from Dead By Sunrise. God, I love Chester's voice. So much better without the rap from Linkin Park. I found out he has 4 kids....welcome to the club, friend.
Halloween was filled with candy, an allergic reaction to the face paint, and more candy.
Ive been feverishly working on the writing, approaching 330 pages. half of me feels like it should be burned b/c it is crap, and the other, smaller percentage thinks it may the the best thing ive ever written. i passed the year mark...and i'm still going. my only goal when i started it was to stick with it to finish. its taking longer than i expected, but i have to work around work and kids and chaos to get it done.
g/g/
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