4 years ago.....my youngest son was born. he was half purple and sputtering and freaking the doctor out enough to make him ask if he was okay, while i was strapped to a table trying not ti watch the monitors.
today he is a rambuncious (sp?) little boy with enough opinions for an adult, he's got a smart mouth, a fighting spirit. he'll still kiss me every day, and he looks so much like his dad that sometimes its breathtaking. he loves cars, being in charge, and getting his way, but thats just the age. right now it is all about this battle for control, to see how far he can push me, and that too, is just the age. 4 is way worse than 3. its hard for me to imagine him the age of his older brothers, almost 9 and just as opinionated, but time seems to get away so fast that before I know it, he'll be old enough to ride his bike to school and have sleepovers. its hard not to want him to be little again, tiny and wrinkled, but at the same time, its refreshing to know that he's the last, that i never have to deal with 3am feedings or potty training or baby proofing again. anyway, thats my little rant for the day. i feel better already.
on another front, i have done nothing with the writing, though i dug out the binders and plan on reading...to get my mind back into the story.
listening to: band of horses, No ones gonna love you.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
wow.
it feels like a year. really.
the writing was going strong until early June. then the kids were done with school, and the summer made it impossible to focus on anything except escaping the heat and muting bickering children from my brain.
BUT! school is back in session, and so i am gearing up to start back at it.
so bands i focused on this summer....rage against the machine's selftitled, hadnt heard that since highschool. which makes me feel old. also smashing pumpkins' siamese dream...BT's latest, and Deadmau5.
i also learned how to quilt like a big dork. im on my third one, and have one more to go before i can make one for myself, which was the original intention. anyways. i also started watching Supernatural simply b/c there was nothing on tv. not that i watch alot of TV anyway, but when i did, i was catching up on seasons 1-5.
ttyl.
the writing was going strong until early June. then the kids were done with school, and the summer made it impossible to focus on anything except escaping the heat and muting bickering children from my brain.
BUT! school is back in session, and so i am gearing up to start back at it.
so bands i focused on this summer....rage against the machine's selftitled, hadnt heard that since highschool. which makes me feel old. also smashing pumpkins' siamese dream...BT's latest, and Deadmau5.
i also learned how to quilt like a big dork. im on my third one, and have one more to go before i can make one for myself, which was the original intention. anyways. i also started watching Supernatural simply b/c there was nothing on tv. not that i watch alot of TV anyway, but when i did, i was catching up on seasons 1-5.
ttyl.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
:::::::::::::::::year::::zero::::::::::::::::::
how i missed this one is anyones guess.
ok, so not ENTIRELY true. i probably wrote this album off as i did The Fragile.
i compelled to d/l Year Zero tonight, after a search AGAIN for PHM, which yeilds no results. anyway, zero is blowing my mind as we speak. right, so im like 3 years late, no matter. its timeless.
other news. inspired enough to write a mostly new ch 2 and 3 and still going strong.
the littlest one has a broken foot, and is sporting a green and purple striped cast. turns out he *can't* fly.
ok, so not ENTIRELY true. i probably wrote this album off as i did The Fragile.
i compelled to d/l Year Zero tonight, after a search AGAIN for PHM, which yeilds no results. anyway, zero is blowing my mind as we speak. right, so im like 3 years late, no matter. its timeless.
other news. inspired enough to write a mostly new ch 2 and 3 and still going strong.
the littlest one has a broken foot, and is sporting a green and purple striped cast. turns out he *can't* fly.
Monday, January 18, 2010
untitled
busy days.
itunes doesnt have Pretty Hate Machine, NIN. Ill have to d/l from my actual CD..if i can find it. they do have live versions of Terrible Lie and Sin though which are pretty cool, i like hearing the fans in the background.
dr. appts today. im wearing my glasses, even if i still feel traumatized. (i can SEE now, so thats a plus).
d/l Higher than the Stars, 103, and Stay Alive by The Pains of Being Pure At Heart.
I also was inspired to listen to The Cure's Disintegration Album the other day. Seriously, why do i obsess over finding new music when i have The Cure? I still have to argue that WISH is my favorite album, followed by BloodFlowers and Head on the Door,...oh yeah, and Boys Dont Cry...and WMS.
itunes doesnt have Pretty Hate Machine, NIN. Ill have to d/l from my actual CD..if i can find it. they do have live versions of Terrible Lie and Sin though which are pretty cool, i like hearing the fans in the background.
dr. appts today. im wearing my glasses, even if i still feel traumatized. (i can SEE now, so thats a plus).
d/l Higher than the Stars, 103, and Stay Alive by The Pains of Being Pure At Heart.
I also was inspired to listen to The Cure's Disintegration Album the other day. Seriously, why do i obsess over finding new music when i have The Cure? I still have to argue that WISH is my favorite album, followed by BloodFlowers and Head on the Door,...oh yeah, and Boys Dont Cry...and WMS.
Monday, January 4, 2010
snow!
snowing like crazy.
so glad winter vacation is over, its been a good 3 weeks since ive sat down to the computer to write. again, no official new years resolution, but like last year, i'm going to stick with the goal of finishing the current writing project........its hovering around 330 pages. i've started a huge revision of it, and have 1 chapter done (of 12)! yikes. the main purpose it to make it more cohesive, to fix loose ends and streamline character development in the earlier chapters. the characters are very vivid after 12+ chapters, so its easy to go back and make them more "themselves" in the early portion of the book. its slow-going, but i am optimistic that it will make the whole story better. after i finish the revisions, hopefully i will be able to finish the whole thing, and the outlines i have for the last 3 chapters. book two is floating out there somewhere, not fully realized, but more like a collection of ideas with a general direction.
a few notes about music. lady gaga...so in the media spotlight right now, i actually like the song 'speechless', and one other one, but only b/c of the electronic influences and evidence of her being a dj before a pop queen.
owl city- its a love/hate thing for me,. the first time i heard him, i almost wanted to puke. like a pixy stick....someone of it is still too "sweet" for me to swallow. i do like Hello Seattle, the remix, and of course the frequent and relentless radio-play annoys me to no end!
30stm- gotta say i do like select songs from the cd. probably the ones that got the worst reviews.
like Vox Populi, and Alibi.
The Pains of Being Pure at Heart= great smiths/morrissey-esque songs. they get flack for imitating, but i must say i enjoy their self-titled....
so...thats it, other than having palpitations that are starting to freak me out.
OH! forgot, im following the whole AFIHQ's mystery.....its so freakin intricate, im really wondering how they are ever going to tie up all the loose ends.
so glad winter vacation is over, its been a good 3 weeks since ive sat down to the computer to write. again, no official new years resolution, but like last year, i'm going to stick with the goal of finishing the current writing project........its hovering around 330 pages. i've started a huge revision of it, and have 1 chapter done (of 12)! yikes. the main purpose it to make it more cohesive, to fix loose ends and streamline character development in the earlier chapters. the characters are very vivid after 12+ chapters, so its easy to go back and make them more "themselves" in the early portion of the book. its slow-going, but i am optimistic that it will make the whole story better. after i finish the revisions, hopefully i will be able to finish the whole thing, and the outlines i have for the last 3 chapters. book two is floating out there somewhere, not fully realized, but more like a collection of ideas with a general direction.
a few notes about music. lady gaga...so in the media spotlight right now, i actually like the song 'speechless', and one other one, but only b/c of the electronic influences and evidence of her being a dj before a pop queen.
owl city- its a love/hate thing for me,. the first time i heard him, i almost wanted to puke. like a pixy stick....someone of it is still too "sweet" for me to swallow. i do like Hello Seattle, the remix, and of course the frequent and relentless radio-play annoys me to no end!
30stm- gotta say i do like select songs from the cd. probably the ones that got the worst reviews.
like Vox Populi, and Alibi.
The Pains of Being Pure at Heart= great smiths/morrissey-esque songs. they get flack for imitating, but i must say i enjoy their self-titled....
so...thats it, other than having palpitations that are starting to freak me out.
OH! forgot, im following the whole AFIHQ's mystery.....its so freakin intricate, im really wondering how they are ever going to tie up all the loose ends.
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