sad

i was watching a tv show on Logo yesterday about a group of gay activists who traveled around the country stopping at various christian universities to talk to students. it really affected me, just like the passing of prop 8 in 2008. the persecution that these people faced on their trip was sort of appalling to me, but then again not. i know what its like to not be liked simply for being who i am. i cant really imagine having to live my life in secret and in fear.

it actually makes me really angry. i mean people are people. who gives a damn what your sexual orientation is? a couple things that were said on the show really pissed me off. an administrator said something to the effect of (after not allowing the distribution of reading materials and pamphlets for the students) " its not about being homosexual, or heterosexual, its that we believe in the sanctity of marriage and sex to be only between a married man and his wife" (i put in quotes even though its not word for word). okay that statement RIGHT THERE is contradictory. and how could the kids at these schools ALLOW someone to dictate what they can and cannot READ!??!!??!!?!?!? fuck that.

someone also said "love the sinner, hate the sin"................which also affended me a little. i mean, how can you love someone and accept someone if you "HATE" them? seriously. i feel bad for all of the kids that are taught that their inherent nature is wrong. now, im on the fence on whether sexuality is something a person is born with (see, that gray area again....) or whether it is shaped by their life and experiences. i suspect it is a little of both. but imagine being hated for simply wanting to live an honest and fufilling life.

i have kids, and i am planning on being completely open with them on this issue, when the time comes. im not sure when the appropriate time is though. i mean, now? they are young. i want them to grow up honest and respectful people who can feel free enough to express themselves openly. i dont understand how people can disown their kids b/c they are gay/bi whatever. how could a person do that? a person's sexuality is just a small part of them. i mean, its not ALL a person is, and it seems like people treat gay people this way. as if they are only a sexual thing, and not someone with other facets. its all they can see. its sad to me that our country hasnt moved past this. separation of church and state? yeah right. anyway, thats my rant, and believe me, i could go on and on and on.

song: "Halo" by Depeche Mode, off Violator.