so i do have a new years resolution this year. i cant remember if i had one last year, but anyways. wait i have 2. first is to finish the thing i am writing. just to finish it. im 120 pages in and have taken a break due to all the necessary holiday stuff, but now i am trying to get back into the groove. im searching for inspiration through music, art and photography and compiling it. okay, the second thing i want it people who understand me. okay that sounds a little juvenile and angsty, but it is true. everyone needs and wants friends that understand them. right now i feel like i have no one. the things that are important to me on a daily basis just are not relevant for other people. i feel like people see me, but dont really SEE me, you know? and that sucks. or maybe its just that no one cares to actually take the time. im pretty sure my husband tolerates it, like he will listen to me go on and on about things, pictures, a random commercial, a lengthy and detailed dream, an intricate story of something that happened years ago. he listens, but it doesnt matter to him, and thats not his fault. he's just not like me, but that is one of the things i love about him. so i want actual connections with people, not just insignificant exchanges, simple and fleeting words that mean nothing.
song of the day, since i am in a sort of a mo0d:
Lifehouse: "Storm"
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